Using drugs and alcohol used to be practical. We had found a new way to live without having to face uncomfortable situations or feelings. But once the initial success of our drug use subsided and we found that problems and trouble began to come into our lives as a result of our unhealthy and reckless behaviors, we no longer used drugs to live—we used them to survive.
The Worst Day of Sobriety
In our addiction, we strove for meager goals. If we were able to buy our drugs quickly, and effectively use them without interference, that was considered a good day. Getting high was an accomplishment; getting more drunk, more stoned, more strung out than we already were, well, we considered that going above and beyond—a day for the books: this achievement is what set apart the “good” days from the “best” days of our intoxication.
What we considered to be our “best” days of using quickly became our “everydays”. We became increasingly unreliable, isolated, distant, dishonest and untrustworthy. Our thinking became ever more clouded, our perceptions progressively warped. We were unprepared to cope with life as it presented itself to us, and sought assistance in drugs and alcohol.
When We Get Sober
It wasn’t until we came to recovery that we began to recognize the limits we placed on our every thought and action through our drinking and drugging. Once we attained a length of sobriety and clarity of mind, we were able to see that our solution to fear, insecurity, and discomfort was the very thing impeding us emotionally and keeping us physically and spiritually ill. Life started making more sense and, through the practice and application of the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, became easier to face and to handle.
Life changes drastically when we get sober. We trade in our solution of using drugs and alcohol for a new, spiritual approach to living. We learn coping skills that we lacked in our addiction and apply them when addressing our fears, insecurities and character defects. Now that we have begun to grow, we find that we have far fewer lows in our lives than we had while we were using. Each day in our sobriety may not be smooth sailing, but once we have left our addictions behind, we can agree that the “worst” days of our sobriety are far better than the “best” days of our intoxication.